I hated days like this.

It was sunny and really warm. The sky was blue, but some clouds were walking around. I stood there for just a second. I thought to myself, ''What do I wanna do right now?'' Well, I didn’t have an answer to that.

I hated days like this because I always felt alone.

Actually ‘’Everyone is alone in this life.’’ was a sentence that showed me the way many times. So, I knew, every single human being in this world, was freakin’ alone. But what I mean is, I was reminded in days like this, that I was alone.

I got a lot of things to do, that’s right. And unlike many people, I always knew how to occupy myself. But in days like this, I couldn’t find anything to do. I didn’t wanna read, I didn’t wanna watch anything, I didn’t wanna get any work done, I didn’t wanna scream. All I could do was just to be there and watch the clouds that pass by.

I even am annoyed by the songs of the birds, even though I love birds.

I guess I was looking for someone or something to happen. But for who? What? I don’t know. Got many expectations. But I know they’re mostly unrealistic.

If you’d ask someone about me, they’d probably say that I’m quite realistic towards life. Even my dreams are too realistic and that’s not a good thing. Because dreams are endless. They should be. But my dreams have limits.

Still, my expectations are too high and impossible sometimes. Isn’t it awkward?

Yeah, those are my thoughts and feelings, in days like this.